Alcohol wasn’t ruining my life…but it was stealing bits of my time, energy, and joy....
SO I STARTED TO GET INTENTIONAL ABOUT THE WAY I WANTED TO FEEL.
Before
my personal
Sober Tranquility Journey...
AFTER
my personal
Sober Tranquility Journey...
My Life NoW!
Those Tiny Whispers Of Knowing.
For years I would wake up and ask myself, "what is one thing I can do to love myself today?"
Oftentimes it would be things like "drink more water... slow down.... stay in the moment...use compassionate self-talk" yet underneath there was always this little whisper of "moderate or just let go of alcohol."
The thing is I wasn't addicted to alcohol. I wasn't getting drunk every night. My drinking was more like a slow drip of weeknight drinking that entailed a few glasses of wine. The weekend? That's when a martini or 2 followed by a glass of wine was the norm.
I didn't have a problem quitting the daily habit when I wanted... I just couldn't get rid of the desire.
Sometimes I listened and would take a break only to return to the daily habit of drinking when the emotions I was trying to push down came bubbling up in the absence of the band aid of Pinot Noir or martinis.
In a way, my habit of Pinot Noir was like a bad relationship that promised so much in the short term but left much to be desired as the sun rose the following morning.
It wasn't until one Sunday morning when once again I was feeling what resembled a minor case of the flu did I pick up the phone and say yes to a friend who wanted me to join her on a 90 day experiment. I only committed to 30 days because 90 was too much to even contemplate.
This time was different. Before I knew it, 90 days had flown by......